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Kamikaze
02:14
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All I’ve ever done is doubt myself
That I could make a difference in good health
Harm reduction for an unseen future
One performative vital suture
There’s poetry to being the last of our kind
As long as I spend my time wisely I don’t mind
Kicking this old can down the road
I never thought this was a hand I would fold
Early expiration, leaving on a permanent vacation
Too many of us, who’s it gonna be?
The answer is right in front of me
I’ll take myself out
Circular thinking, unproductive reasoning
Fixture for change
America’s in first place, somehow we all lose the race
Means to an end
There’s poetry to being the last of our kind
As long as I spend my time wisely I don’t mind
Kicking this old can down the road
I never thought this was a hand I would fold
Early expiration, leaving on a permanent vacation
Too many of us, who’s it gonna be?
The answer is right in front of me
I’ll take myself out
Here our hero lies,
DOA by DIY
A donor to the greater good
Surviving this life pact is the most selfish act
Why don’t you just give back and have a heart attack
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Empty Nesting Doll
01:48
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I’m sorry I never told you I cared
I didn’t think it meant much
I never was aware
The house you built
It was too much of a home
The guilt is harder to stomach once we’re old and alone
Comfort is too much of an ask
When digging up regret from the past
A joyous occasion overshadowed with grief
Peel back the pain and find a sense of relief
Cut me open hear me out
Bleed me dry of the useless doubt
I’ve grown lines on my face
Missing you- a road I thought I’d never take
At no fault but my own
I thought I’d finally grown
Past the petty bullshit
But now I think I’m losing it
The photos pile up high
Wish we had more time to ask why?
Now I try to make sense
It’s unfortunate but it’s a part of life
At no fault but my own
I thought I’d finally grown
Past the petty bullshit
I’m losing it
It might be time to shut my fucking mouth
No one listens
No one listens to me
If I may make a suggestion
Stop asking all these useless questions
I can’t help but feel this way
A heaviness I’ve never known- I’ll be ok
Internalize, rationalize- any means to make it through the day
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Throwing Stones
01:43
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THROWING STONES
If you won’t take me at my words
Twist them up as if they’ve never been heard
Blanketed assumptions of ill intent
Trial by fire, jury of the discontent
It’s what I want
It’s what you’ve got
I’m not satisfied it’s never enough
Blindly throwing stones, you don’t care who they hurt
Nothing’s changing for you, for better or worse
If What’s mine is yours what’s left for me?
It’s what I want
It’s what you’ve got
I’m not satisfied it’s never enough
Caught up with your own jealous greed
You think you’ve fucking earned anything?
No accountability for what you do or say
Tearing down the innocent because you never got your way
A life sentence has just begun
The damage has been done
Enough is too much, it’s never enough
It’s what I want
It’s what you’ve got
I’m not satisfied it’s never enough
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Tempered Expectations
01:45
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Society divided by the haves and have nots
A measuring stick made of what you don’t got
Resentment based in self discontent
Material obsession mistaken for aggression
A glass half-full spilled by lack of motivation
No accounting for the time you’ve spent
The hill you’re climbing it’s not so steep
But I’ve grown sore from the grudges you keep
You’re waiting for a handout that’s never gonna come
A balancing act on the back of all the past work you’ve done
They say patience is a virtue but hard work is king
It’s easy to forget that the world doesn’t owe you a single thing
Tempered expectations, reasonable returns
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5. |
Cosmic Joke
01:21
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What we see isn’t all we affect
What we get isn’t endless
Living for today I’d consider selfish
Life in certain death
Kevlar vest of lies, insulated disease
Avoiding prosecution we do as we please
Backed into a corner can’t turn away
Facing judgement day
I wanna know how did we get here?
Where do we go? Can’t break away
Meaningful existence, none other than mine
Nihilistic notions are somewhat divine
Apathetic values? What about me?
We are all guilty
Comedy in loss, tragic surprise
Coping mechanism I can’t deny
Media portrayal of a hoax
We’re the fucking joke
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Howard Beale
01:34
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Consumption is a disease
Organized crime influencing me
Confused
Don’t worry about the truth
Amused
We’ll tell you what you wanna hear
Mental breakdown or total clarity
The line is drawn with steady hands
Unconcerned with fact or fiction
The line is blurred with shaky hands
Ambiguous by design, premeditated delusions
Puppet master hold my hand
Lead us in division
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Hedonic Treadmill
01:14
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Running in circles going nowhere
Running in circles going nowhere fast
More money, new car
Better body, new guitar
We all reap what we sow
Superficial happiness ebbs and flows
Endless consumption to spend one week high
Discontent with living sometimes I’d rather die
I’m addicted
Frustrated, complicated, isolated, incapacitated
Hedonic adaptation isn’t lost on me
Spreading yourself thin between wants and needs
Nickel and dimed until we’re content
The high won’t last long, sadly codependent
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Leave It Alone
01:10
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We make our jokes to hide from the truth
This year I learned I’m not that close to you
Distance is nothing, the fact remains
Family and fortune aren’t one in the same
Say what you wanna say
But there’s no fucking way I’ll ever back down
Leave it alone
There’s a difference between what I think and know
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Morphine
01:22
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Do or die it’s your choice to make
Live or die we don’t have a say
I don’t want you hurting
As if you have a choice
I don’t want your pain
I’ll gladly take it all away
Place syringe under tongue
Drain fluid from your lungs
The culmination of all feeling
Some say the best die young
It’s not what we want
It’s not what we need
Rest assured we’ll be fine
We’ve got more blood to bleed
No stone’s been left unturned
No lessons left to learn
Live or die we don’t have a say
Live or die we have no say
Through tears I beg and plead
Let go and rest easy
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